I’ve been silent lately and most of the reason is that I have been busy and not making the time to sit down and write about what has been going on in my life. but now I sit. As I type I realize that all that has happened in the last couple months would take up a good couple pages…. So I am going to give you the shortened version- one page! [insert grin]
Let’s see… December. As far as the doing, I was able to do a great many things. There are many activities and get-togethers at work during the holiday months that make it fly by so fast. Overall I cannot believe that it was my second Christmas with my girls; time has gone by so quickly. Mid-December I went and visited my family during the first week of my break. We watched Christmas movies, drank apple cider, and had a wonderful Christmas. My brother was not able to join us- he was definitely missed! The second week of break I went to Texas to visit my cousin. I was able to hang out with some of my new found friends from the last time I visited and it was great! I got to see Tron, go to D&B to play arcade games, and won some kazoo’s! I then traveled with my cousin Jessica to Kansas City, MO to go to the Onething Conference for a week. We came together with around 25,000 young adults to bring in the New Year in worship to God, to set our hearts towards the Lord, and seek His face.
There Abba changed me.
My life was very much ruled by a cloud that I could never quite name. I knew that it was there, I just couldn’t figure out what it was and why it had such a hold on me. It was not until recently that I was able to name that thing… it was fear. It has been slowly coming to light over the past couple years. However, the truth that with my Savior Jesus Christ, fear no longer has power over me was fully realized at the conference. It was there that I chose to get up off the ground and stand in the victory that He has given me. It was there that I made a war cry against the enemy of my soul. I told him that he would no longer be able to walk over me because of what my Provider Jesus had done. I found the voice that Abba has given me through the blood of Jesus Christ. It was great. I was able to spend that week learning, worshiping and soaking in the presence of the Lord. It was amazing and I am so glad that I went.
These past two months have been the continuation of the last week of December where Abba met me.
Don’t get me wrong- the high mountain top experience did not last forever! Yet when the goose bump experiences where gone, He was still here. Walking with me, providing for me, disciplining and loving me- which is the same thing! As I look back at the new year, it has been a time of discipline, purification, and foundation. There have been times that I have been discouraged, frustrated, drained, burdened, and tired-where I don’t think that I can handle any more…. but then He gets me to look up into His wonderful face and everything just becomes dim and hazy when I see Him. My heart is at peace when I am with Him and He gives me the strength to stand.
I will press and press, seek and seek, continue to move towards my Lord, my One and only, my Abba. Come with me…. Let us seek His face!
