New Year here I come!!!

I’ve been silent lately and most of the reason is that I have been busy and not making the time to sit down and write about what has been going on in my life. but now I sit. As I type I realize that all that has happened in the last couple months would take up a good couple pages…. So I am going to give you the shortened version- one page! [insert grin]

Let’s see… December. As far as the doing, I was able to do a great many things. There are many activities and get-togethers at work during the holiday months that make it fly by so fast. Overall I cannot believe that it was my second Christmas with my girls; time has gone by so quickly. Mid-December I went and visited my family during the first week of my break. We watched Christmas movies, drank apple cider, and had a wonderful Christmas. My brother was not able to join us- he was definitely missed! The second week of break I went to Texas to visit my cousin. I was able to hang out with some of my new found friends from the last time I visited and it was great! I got to see Tron, go to D&B to play arcade games, and won some kazoo’s! I then traveled with my cousin Jessica to Kansas City, MO to go to the Onething Conference for a week. We came together with around 25,000 young adults to bring in the New Year in worship to God, to set our hearts towards the Lord, and seek His face.

There Abba changed me.

My life was very much ruled by a cloud that I could never quite name. I knew that it was there, I just couldn’t figure out what it was and why it had such a hold on me. It was not until recently that I was able to name that thing… it was fear. It has been slowly coming to light over the past couple years. However, the truth that with my Savior Jesus Christ, fear no longer has power over me was fully realized at the conference. It was there that I chose to get up off the ground and stand in the victory that He has given me. It was there that I made a war cry against the enemy of my soul. I told him that he would no longer be able to walk over me because of what my Provider Jesus had done. I found the voice that Abba has given me through the blood of Jesus Christ. It was great. I was able to spend that week learning, worshiping and soaking in the presence of the Lord. It was amazing and I am so glad that I went.

These past two months have been the continuation of the last week of December where Abba met me.

Don’t get me wrong- the high mountain top experience did not last forever! Yet when the goose bump experiences where gone, He was still here. Walking with me, providing for me, disciplining and loving me- which is the same thing! As I look back at the new year, it has been a time of discipline, purification, and foundation. There have been times that I have been discouraged, frustrated, drained, burdened, and tired-where I don’t think that I can handle any more…. but then He gets me to look up into His wonderful face and everything just becomes dim and hazy when I see Him. My heart is at peace when I am with Him and He gives me the strength to stand.


I will press and press, seek and seek, continue to move towards my Lord, my One and only, my Abba. Come with me…. Let us seek His face!

Deeper and Deeper Still

It has been a while since I last posted and I thought I would update you on what the Lord has been working and doing in my life. Since November 15, I have turned 24! I am so excited to start this new year on a grand journey with my maker, my Father, my lover, and my friend. For my birthday I spent the day with my family, my friends, and the desert. For a while, I had wanted to see the stars, to worship the Lord for my life that He has sustained and given me. I talked to my friend Zaphy and she hopped on board with the idea. After visiting my family, a small band of my friends went out to Joshua Tree and found a place of solitude. We worshiped and I, in the presence of my friends and in the secret of my heart dedicated this next year to Abba. I gave Him back my life.


I am so done living life as normal. I am done living mediocre and thinking that where I am now is enough. … because it’s not. I know that there is so much more that the Father has for me. He has a great plan, one that is so much bigger than I could ever imagine. He has so much of Himself for me, His love and the power of a life fully immersed in His presence. I was given a name…. Aisha. It means life. I truly know that life is where I am to dwell in, that I am to be life, not my own but His. This is a small part of my heart’s desire and I plan on taking this year and relentlessly pursuing Him, dedicated every day to this Holy calling.

Since the last post, my Lover has been continuing to call to me, to speak words of Truth, to call me by name, to speak His Word, to tell me who I truly am. It has been difficult. The spirit of this age and the prince of this world has noticed my stirring heart and has tried to separate me, make me doubt, make me unsure of Abba’s words. I have had to battle against my own will, my own way. Abba though has broken some old chains that I once had. I feel freer now than I ever have before. The battle still presses on and slowly the true warrior is teaching me how to use what He has given me to fight against the adversary.

I praise the Lord because my hope is in Him; He is my shelter, my refuge. I stand underneath the shadow of His wings and meditate on His goodness.

I am a crown of splendor in the Lords hand, a royal diadem in the hand of my God.

I am full of beauty, I am delighted in, I am beloved, I am a daughter of the King.

All because of who HE IS, my dwelling place. This is where I am.







Oh p.s. If you read this before the last week of December, please keep me in your prayers. I am contemplating a possible internship in addition to the same amount of time I work at the girl’s house. I want to walk in His way and inquire if this is a wise, right, good decision and if this is His will for me. Please pray that my eyes would be open to Abba’s already set plan and to step into it by His direction.

Thank you so much!!!

Short and Sweet.

Alright guys, usually my posts are long, and this one would be long too, but to capture all that has happened in the last couple weeks... It would take forever. That can be reserved for face to face conversations if you would like to know. So, basically here is the breakdown.

Abba has lead me to a dry, wilderness.
He has removed all that I once cared about.
He has made himself the center of my thoughts, mind, and heart.
He allowed me to press into the wilderness and seek His face.
He has revealed Himself to me as I continue to do so.
He showed Himself to me.... and I fell face down in Love.

I am longing for something more. The dreams that I had, the longings that I once held in my hand now seem so small, too small for the Great Maker and Father that I have. I know He can do so much more with my life. That small flame to know more is kindling. He is so much bigger than I can ever imagine, more glorious than I could ever see, more loving than I could ever hold.

Small kindle, burn brighter
brighter still, ever increasing
fill these empty spaces as I
make room.

Oh would You make the room
your Light fills every place
nothing can escape it
you make the dark places known
illuminate with your Truth

Let us welcome Your Light
with arms open wide
eyes clear, hearts humbled
willing all of us to You

continue with Your patience
and loving-kindness
be faithful to us, to me
like only you know how

At the end we will be
ever giving You glory
let it shine on me
only then can I truly live

Abba's Song

He sung this song over me today. My heart remembered, my eyes were cleared, and I was strengthed by Love.




Be not dismayed whate’er betide,
God will take care of you;
Beneath His wings of love abide,
God will take care of you.


God will take care of you,
Through every day, over all the way;
He will take care of you,
God will take care of you.


Through days of toil when heart doth fail,
God will take care of you;
When dangers fierce your path assail,
God will take care of you.

All you may need He will provide,
God will take care of you;
Nothing you ask will be denied,
God will take care of you.


No matter what may be the test,
God will take care of you;
Lean, weary one, upon His breast,
God will take care of you.

Mirror, Mirror

I was browsing one of my very talented friend’s website and was blown away with her work… the way that she captures beauty, the way she exudes beauty. To find, pour forth, and share that to others blew me away.


I have been thinking about beauty lately. I went to a friend’s wedding recently and one of my friends there got on the topic of how the bride was beautiful because of her gentle and graceful nature about her [among other things]. …

and in the midst of these conversations and ponderings I have been asking in a quiet voice, so that even my heart can barely hear: Where is my beauty?

Now before all of my lovely friends come to my rescue and speak words to rest assure that I am indeed beautiful, would you hear my out.

I know I am beautiful. The God of the universe, the maker of heaven and earth, all good, all beauty, all wonder and grace has made me after all. He does not make mistakes and all that he speaks and touches becomes astounding and full of love and beauty. So I know I am beautiful. But where is it? In which part[s] of myself is beauty present?

I was reading proverbs 31- the famous ‘woman of noble character’ segment the other day trying to get a sense of what the Word calls beauty. She has strength and dignity, she works feverously, giving to the needy, is not afraid of trials and uses her skills to support her family.

Looking at Ruth, how she left her home, her people to go to a place and take care of her mother-in-law. When others would have said ‘peace out lady- I’ve got my whole life ahead of me’- Naomi even told her to go and find a new husband… but she did not. She stayed with Naomi and worked; she found favor because of her beauty-so much so that she is remembered thousands of years later.

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;

but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. Proverbs 31:30

Where is it? I have come to remember that my real beauty comes from the Lord and my proximity to Him. The more that I draw near to Him the more of His beauty can be seen in my being. Which in turn will burst from me and people will wow at it- they will wow at His beauty made real in me. He has stamped His image on me, and it is beautiful. When I allow Him to shine on me, I mirror His beauty and the world wows. Not only does this show through me but His glory and beauty is shown through all of us when we allow Him to.

I pray that we all will allow it to break forth.

The world needs His beauty

Newest Project

I made this photo calender for my boss. She was having her first grandchild and the office threw a party for her. This was the gift that I made. The baby was born in September, so I started the calendar from there so she could add photos as the year went along.